So, it is official – I am no longer pre-menopausal – it appears I am now menopausal!
No, I haven’t been to the doctor about it (what are they going to tell me that I don’t already know!), but my period stopped a few months ago…so I am now taking it as I am officially in Menopause!
What does that mean for me? Well, it means no longer having to worry about contraception (WOOO HOO!!), but it does mean that for some reason I am constantly feeling like I am in the few days before a period.
I am emotional. I cry at stupid videos, advertisements, TV shows that wouldn’t normally affect me. I get cranky at the slightest little thing. I can swing that mood faster than a child on a swing being pushed by someone on steriods!!
I also change my mind regularly (no, I don’t mean over a week, I am talking over a matter of minutes!) as to what I want to get out of the rest of my life! If you had asked me this morning, I wanted to make lots of money, and be comfortable. This has gone from this extreme (because, quite frankly, for me to be able to get lots of money it is going to have to involve a winning lottery ticket at this rate!) to wanting to live in a cave, talk to no-one and just live off the land and of course, this has also involved everything in between!
Of course, living off the land isn’t really an option – I have never even been camping – I wouldn’t know how to even begin living off the land (and quite frankly, if you know me, you know I am not that type of person at all, and you are probably rolling around the floor laughing at the thought of me doing this!).
Now, I know I have always been a bit ‘flighty’ and I have always loved a change – in scenery and jobs – but it seems I am getting worse!
So, what to do? I think the answer might be to have many projects on the go at once. Then, if I become emotional about one, or change my mind about what I want, I can move onto the other, without changing my entire life!
Men do mid life crisis’s well. They (not all of them! I know! But, yes, I am stereotyping!) go out buy flash cars, dress like they are younger and more!
What do I want to do? I like to make changes….but I know I shouldn’t constantly doing it! After all, I am supposed to be mature now (ohhhhhh….no it appears not!!)
Is this a mid life crisis? Or am I just like this? Is menopause and the fear of getting much older making me want to make these changes quicker as time goes on (well, quicker than I used to!!). Do I just feel like I am running out of time?